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It has been a difficult week for me, Lord. You know it quite well that I tried no to shed any tears during the past week though finally I cried for couple days, alone but with You beside me.
Three lost, three mourning in the same week. Three people with different backgrounds left this world and bunch of people cried for them. Two of them are from my extended family, which one is quite dearly to me and the third one is though not a blood family, I always consider as part of a family in this alien land. One of them I was told is with You now, Lord, but the two others actually I got no idea of how they will spend the eternity.
I feel sorry for their close family, for their lost but sometimes I think what cause each of their family members feel sad. In some occasion, I found out that many times the reason to be sad is quite a selfish act, but in most cases, feel sad because we don’t have certainty that we can meet that person anymore.
I believe that those who love Christ have been called to be His and when their lives end in this world, they will go to the eternity with their Lord. For those kind of people, leaving this world is actually the reason for their family to rejoice because they are going to their Lord and one day they will meet again as family in Christ, better than what they ever have in this world. But can we really rejoice in this season when everyone is crying even though we know that certain person is having a better life than the one they had in this world.
I found myself crying for several reason. First of all because I know that those who never acknowledge their need of a savior and accept Him who claims to be One, will never go be with the savior for eternity. The second reason is that I found myself still owe those person so many things, things or action that I supposed to do for them or offer to them, I will never have the chance again. The third reason is that I imagine the feeling of their family and I can help myself but to dry with them. Still the list is quite long if I need to tell why I cry.
But actually I found several reasons to rejoice in this season as well. I feel God’s love is so real and His word is a living word that pierce through my soul. His consolation is sweeter than anything and His promise is certain. Some people get closer to Him and some people got their hearts harden after that, but strangely still I can praise the Lord despite the circumstances.
It is so true that the song and joy and peace of our Heavenly Father stay in our hearts forever in any seasons of our lives. Three mourning are not common for me, but double mourn within couple months, I had that before. And when You have permitted those mourning in my life, I praise You for being a faithful God because I know You see the pain and tears and You will change them to be a new song in my heart.
Good bye for now, You know if I will meet them again.

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