Thank You, Jesus for being with me during this year. I have seen many new things and I perceived Your love in every step I take in every way I go.
They can tell me it is nonsense to believe in YOU, but I do really feel YOU and know YOU are here for me, with me. I don’t care if they said I’m crazy for loving YOU, for believing in YOU. Because my eyes have seen the glory of the Lord.
Thank You for taking good care of me during this last past year. Thank YOU for the family I have and for YOUR protection on them. Thank YOU for the blessings YOU send for them.
Thank YOU for the experiences I got during this 2009-met many new people, learned many new lessons, refreshing my heart and mind with YOUR loving kindness.
I have no words to express my feeling. But I just want to say thank YOU from the deepest part of my heart. That I love YOU and I pray that YOU mold me and shape me as YOUR will and plan for me.
I am welcoming a new year with no one but with lot of loves and I am glad I have YOU. I am glad to see how YOU worked in their lives. I am glad to know I will see YOU one day soon and I know the time will come if I really do Your will in my daily life.
Thank YOU, Lord. I thank YOU for my family: my dad, mom, and sisters by blood. I thank YOU for my friends, especially for those I call brothers and sisters. I haven’t met many of them now, but I know YOUR love is with them always. Thank YOU for those people I came to know during this 2009, for the conversation I had with them-broadening my horizon, and I wish I left them with some of Your finger print that they see YOU in me.
Thank YOU for the tears and pain YOU allowed me to go through during 2009. I trust in YOU for things I understand and for things I don’t.
I pray my love will go stronger each and every day and it is for YOU alone. I want to explore more with YOU beside me so I can say: Though I walk in the valley of the death, I fear not, for YOU are with. I am ready for 2010

Give away my heart and my life…for Christ is here, let HIM use those for HIS glory…because God is love,

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Is it true that we are criminal?
Is it true we deserve the humiliation?
Is it true the torture will stop us?
Is it true that we are insane ready to die for something absurd?

Is it true that we are the enemy of some countries?
Is it true that we are enemy for some minorities?
Is it true we start the enmity against some majorities?
Is it true we just to gain our own fame doing all what is called more than lunatic?

Or is it pure from our heart when we give the good news?
when we just want to share the feeling of falling in love we have inside,
when we found the greatest gift and forgiveness and we just want to let people know,
do you think we should shut up when we get good things?

We are called selfish and arrogant for thinking we got the best gift,
but we are called selfish and egoist for not sharing the good things we have,
Tell me it is a sensible issue to share about God,
but I tell you I love God because HE loves me from the first and
I just want telling you that HE loves you too

Tell me if you imprison me I will stop
but I will say in confinement I will learn more about HIS love
Tell me if you persecute me it is for the good of the society since I am the virus
But I tell you if you think I am nothing,
you will just let me fade away
But you think this is very serious, then we got what we have now

Is is true that we are the worst virus?
Or in the contrary we want to share the best medicine with all?
I can’t change you, I can’t change the world,
Nothing I can do, but I do know God loves me and He loves you
so that HE paid the price for you and me

May be I am a robot, but you are not,
you can choose what to do or not,
but who can make sure you make the right choice,
but you blame God for the chaos,
and some even said it’s just the physics,
nothing is out there

I will tell you that God created the world, He also created physics and math,
The world isn’t enough to explain HIS existence, but He left His finger prints on you
Be honest and search HIM and He will be find,
because HE is right there near to you when you really open your heart and mind.

Couple weeks ago I read in the internet, bbc website actually, about the human-fat trafficking. I was so surprised to find that some people without any compassion killing others just to get the fat and then sold it to the cosmetics industry in Europe.
Then today in the bbc (again) I read that the news is just a hoax. But the shocking information is that the police or the authorized are those who create the story, not the person who were claimed to be the culprit. It is not some people or some gang who want to get popularity by creating such story, it is said that the police who wants to cover the failure on some cases. But others say that the police just want to use that as smokescreen to distract the public from many problems facing Peru nowadays.

But it is unbelievable I just believed the news the first time I read it. I was so vulnerable to such “amazing” story. Because I saw it in bbc, so I thought it was trustworthy. I forgot that there are people who can create extraordinary story and many will believe but it is a big lie then.
I have to be more careful, though it doesn’t affect me directly, but I think it reminds me of what Jesus said before HE left; that many will come and claim to be HIM before the end of the time and there will be many false prophets.
I should keep alert and keep opening heart and mind from what God will reveal and show me, but also open my mind to learn more things and to be more careful.
I am neither stupid nor innocent, but I think I should remind myself that there are too many lies here in the world, but there are still many good things here on earth

I fell down today on my way to work. I dropped on my stomach and my chest. But thank to God that I didn’t get hurt. A middle age lady and a middle age man approached me asking if I was ok.
I said thanks to them and I mentioned to them because my foot is hurt so I couldn’t walk properly.
I was a bit nervous because my lunch box was thrown away and my laptop also fell down with me. But then when I reached my work place, I checked that everything was ok.
Despite the accident, I want to thank God because I know HE was there with me when I fell down. He sustained me so that nothing serious happened but only some minor bruises.
And not a coincidence when I talked with a friend tonight about blessing. I said I believe in blessing though I don’t really believe in the religion. Because I do know and feel HIS love in my life.
I am quite lazy doing many things, but you can make sure by yourselves, when it is because of love, nothing is too difficult.
And it’s not difficult to me to say thank you though I fell down, it’s not difficult for me to say I’m grateful despite my situation, etc…May be you can call it blessings in disguise, but whatever, I know He is there and I can do it all because of love: because HE loves me so much that JESUS died for me and for you, once for all, no more sacrifices needed, so that I can love HIM and say thank YOU.
I love YOU, Jesus, because You love me first. I want to grow in this love and this is the best I ever have in my life. I want to love YOU big enough so that the world can see YOU because they will know us if we love one another in Christ Jesus’ name.

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I woke up, I remembered the song. I made this for all I met there, those I left with them part of me. Then I said my prayer and now I post it here.
May God bless you and keep you.
Show HIS grace and mercy on you, as you walk through this way…until you come to the final destination…

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I just started checking my email after thinking what I could do today at office when I receive her email. I was just thinking what the news she brought me. After spring I got no news from her.
I was quite surprised when I read the email. Her dad just passed away few days ago in her home country. Then I quickly picked the phone. I called her. She is so sad, crying, telling me how bad she feels, not being able to go home for the funeral. It was quite a shock for her family. I promised to pay her a visit tonight.
I feel her feeling, she told me she doesn’t know how to continue her life without her father. I can do nothing to help, just to pray and encourage her.
Many times things happen unexpected. In one second, our lives can change forever, and it is irreversible. I remember how I lost my grandma, and I still feel very sad until today. But I know I can do nothing to bring her back to me. So every time when I feel I want to cry, I just say a prayer, ask Jesus to help me, because I really can’t hold my feeling alone.
I pray she and her family will find strength in Jesus. knowing that her dad is with HIM now, and God will not let them without resources. And I also remember the dad of a colleague also need a prayer for his health.
Oh. Lord, I can’t never fully comprehend this, but I choose to believe YOU have perfect plan for all. even for me, even for those who haven’t accepted the forgiveness YOU offer them when You gave Your tears and life in the cross.

The other day I got a nightmare. I felt so tired and restless. I called Your name: Jesus, help me, help her, help them. I repeated it many times. And then I found peace in You. You are my shelter and my strong tower.

I prayed and keep praying and I see how You are working in him. I love him and I know he loves me though it’s hard for me to believe that. I haven’t talked to him again since the last time I called him and told him I was tired and disappointed. But I love him and I want the best for him, not because he is my dad, but because Jesus loves me, and loves him also. I wish he read this and I wish he understood how much I love him and I pray for his health and for his future (never too late for a future though my dad is old enough to be a grandparent). Jesus never gives up on him and neither do I. I love you, Jesus. I love you, daddy.

I remembered that I had to pray for the exam, but I forgot to ask when it would be. When I realized that day and I asked, couple days later I got reply it was actually in the day I asked him. It’s so amazing God reminded me of the updating prayer stuff.  And now I pray for his next quest.

But most of all, I just find out that my friend in State is pregnant and they are expecting the baby next June. And she will have finished her school by then and become a pharmacist. It is just perfect for them. I really pray that God keeps taking care and blessing them with all His riches and glory. I am so glad to receive the good news.

And I know I have to pray more, because He is good and faithful…I got a family, I got friends, I got brother, but most of all He is the best I ever have and He hears me when I call HIS name. And now I pray the best for them I love and I care and for those HE put in my path also and I know HE hears me, because He loves them and He loves me. And never underestimate the power of prayer because HE can move the mountain but He wants to hear you calling His name. All because of love.

After filling my brain with lot of things in Germany and Portugal, gaining lot of weights (hahaha) also for staying in 4 stars hotel, real work is here. Sitting in front of the computer, browsing internet, and for sure read a lot of articles.
But it is nice to get good news in my work place. One of my colleagues has got her PhD degree and now she is professor in the distance university. The other has just got the post-doc position. So, it is time to celebrate? Not really, because my other colleague is in quite a stressful condition now. I feel bad looking at him with lot of stress, trying to finish his thesis. But I can’t do anything, I just pray he got the energy and optimism to continue doing what he is finishing now. I wish he found that strength.
But there is also another good news. I talked with one of the classmate during  the course in Potsdam, he told me he is waiting for the defense of his thesis next week. So he is very close to get his PhD degree too. He also wants to pursue his post-doc and he said he really wants to go for it in the North of America. I really wish him good luck and pray the best for his exam and for his future. A pray as a friend is what I can send him.
And today I finally can join the Bible study. I was glad though I was little bit tired after work, I could join the Bible study and share a little bit about the first Christian since we shared about the first church today. I am glad David invited me to that group. I really enjoyed to be in small group because I am not that good if I have to somehow adjust in a big group. And of course the funniest things is that I learnt one new word-swarmy or may be the correct version is smarmy. No matter which one is correct, it is a new word for me. Until now I just know swarm earthquake (hahaha).
After a long week, the weekend is coming. And tomorrow my mom and my little sister will take a flight to attend my cousin’s wedding. I just pray everything is going to be fine and they will enjoy it. May God bless their trip and the wedding.
And it’s time to say a prayer:
I pray that God will keep you safe and sound.
I pray that He give you the strength to keep walking and standing tall.
I pray He teaches you to keep smiling despite the circumstance.
I pray He help you preparing yourselves to receive the best from HIM.
I pray He shows you the way to follow His step.
I pray He help you to see that He will fulfill what He has done in you.
I pray you find in HIM what you need because He is the ultimate and the first and the best you ever have and need in your lives.
I pray Jesus makes this prayer perfect, to accomplish the perfect plan in you.